PAX Blues

As some of you might know, I'm not going to PAX East this year.  It is was it is and I'm trying to come to peace with it.

I was going to steer clear of all Twitters, RvB, and everything else this weekend. PAX news was going to do nothing but bum me out.

I shouldn't be at work.
I should be here at all.
I should be in Boston.

These are the thoughts that have dominated my head since yesterday. I so badly want to be there it was actually affecting me physically.

Then I talked to a couple of friends here. They were asking about weekend plans, what we were doing, where we were playing games, could we get in a round of golf, who's D&D campaign we were playing, the usual stuff.

I realized that the usual stuff is pretty awesome. I'll be hanging out with Lisa tonight, playing board games tomorrow, then D&D on Sunday. The reason that a lot of people get excited for things like PAX and RTX and the like is that they don't get to do the kinds of group gaming that I am so lucky to get to partake just about every weekend. I play games with my friends all the time, and not everyone gets that visceral in-person gaming thrill.

I'm thankful that I get to game as much as I do, and I'm lucky to have the kinds of friends I do here. Still, I miss all my far-flung friends, and I'm going to get shit-faced on Saturday night to pad my mild sorrows. :D